kenneth and guimaras entries
written april 26-blurty.com/users/phinkze
***dances in glee**** i am sooooo happy ... soo happy *lolz* because i just experienced paradise in guimaras!! i can still imagine the serene place ... the blue skies ... the green water ... white sand ... cave and stones and of course kenneth **smiles** first sight of the resort, villa idang, errr ... not a good impression ... it didnt seem to have life! the room didn't even match the room we had in our hotel in iloilo (though they have the same price). the people didnt look friendly too! but after we were escorted to the other part of the resort we were strucked in awe seeing the horizon in different colors!! **wow** it was amazing to see the sky engaging blue ... orange ... red and black colors in its body like it was struggling from the night to take away its bright blue color of the day! but it was amazing SOOBRA! so we had dinner then drunk til midnight ... there on the side of the beach was KENNETH ... who i made little chat with during our 'kwentuhan' moments. i fell in love with the place ... but i fell in love more with kenneth. i was attracted to him not the first instance as well but the moment i exhanged words with him **shy smile** too bad i didn't stay and spent the night with him chatting in that romantic and serene place **sobs ... sobs** but i thought ... the next day i would make up with him! the next day ... dennis and i were already at the beach at 6am! we had like photoshoot! hehehe with all the beautiful sights, it's like we needed a thousand memories in the cam! from the swing ... i was observing the blue sky shed its brightest blue as the sun goes up ... i look at the clear waters of the beach ... and i savor the silence of the place ... with just the sound of the beach in the background! we went to the cave ... then had our yummy breakfast! the next moment SWIM SWIM SWIM!! and from time to time ... i was looking for Kenneth on the counter but it was sad that he was nowhere to be found. close to 11:30 ... close to going back to the REAL WORLD (manila) i was getting lonelier that i would already leave that beautiful place and i would leave the LOVE that i thought i felt for the guy that i didnt even see the second time around ... and so at 12:00 we were ready to leave! one last look at the beach and one last hope of seeing him but i didnt (saaaaaaaaad). on the trycicle... nakasalubong namen ang isang trycycle.. and because the narrow road is good for only one trycicle they had to move back a little ... and there was the man i dreamt! he was in yellow shirt ... he didnt seem to know wot to do when he looked at us. i know he was searching for my eyes through the dark glasses but i was also staring at him.. until our trycicle broke that moment ... "siya si Kenneth ... yung hinahanap mo!" **BLUSHED BLUSHED** and i said goodbye. but then i left my celfone number in the trycicle driver hoping that he would get the idea that i left it for Kenneth ... and yes HE DID TEXT ME!! guimARas is one Place that I have LOVEd in such a short time ... not even a day ... just hours! and i knew in my heart that I would come BACK!! i really would ... and when i do ... i pray that he would still be THERE or he's already with me ...
written may 7, 2004 - blurty.com/users/phinkze
>>>>kenneth :) **reminiscent of the last conversation** he told me ..."i was waiting for you at the beach ... i was hoping you would come out from your room and maybe we can talk!" and i felt heaven was just an inch away when i heard those words. only i regret that i didnt follow my instincts to go out that night! i was already planning to go out there in the beach but i was worried my ofcmates would think me cheap so i fought the urge ... and it left me with 'what ifs' thoughts! ohhh ... it could have been a very romantic night of talks ... by the beach ... and by the moonlight ... only it didn't happen but still m glad that he said it ... that he was there ... WAITING FOR ME! when he texted me "hintaying mu kiss ko ... padating na" i answered him "wag ganun baka mainlove ako sau niyan?" from then on, i didnt receive any text from him (and i wonder) but just to shake off the thoughts, maybe because he doesn't have a celfone yet. but i cant help but think that i offended him! or that i spoil it all again! maybe he's afraid that i might fall really .., gosh idnt know wot to think anymore! i like this guy but it seems i have too much apprehension... doubts and pretensions. i couldnt accept the fact that i really like him because im afraid to show my real feelings and be the fool AGAIN. i am saving myself again from the pain of being in love **frowns** ayokong magisip ng mga maaring mangyari ... dahil alam ko na kung panu magexpect at mabigo. im just trying to enjoy one day at a time. plus the fact that he's way way way under age for me is already too much to handle. we might not be able to hit it off even as friends! gen gap na yata iyon e. syempre, he's far away from me ... haaaaaaaaaaay, kakalungkot naman :( **hoping he would call** but still i wish we can make the most out of the remaining days that he would be here. he's flying soon and i dnt know if i can make a mark in his life. just want him to be a friend and who knows wot tomorrow wil bring?! but hav to admit that this guy is the center of my thoughts nowadays, he brings little joys and i guess ... i needed his type in my life now! 8:29 pm *sigh* havent heard from him in two days now and i miss him terrible. what could have happened? is this a preview of what would happen of us in the long run?! i oh so miss him ... i am still thinkin of him and i want him badly *sigh*
may 23, 2004 - lifted from blurty.com May 23
he said he loves me ... and i believe him yesterday ... it was like i was in 7th heaven! kenneth and i were exhanging texts ... but may i kwento first the day before that?! **im in love** **sings happily** after feeling such a mess with my segment ... was almost calling the day off with fellow researchers at don henrico's when i received a text from kenneth. he was just sayin hi ... then one text has "LUV U HAHAHA JOKE3" and i was so kilig talaga soa i told my fellow researchers and they advised me to say LUV U 2! joke din! and i did but he texted again, LUV U hindi JOKE!! and i replied LUV U 2 kenneth: "talaga mahal mu ako?"! me: I didnt text back and he missed call :) then i texted him ... ako ba mahal mo ako?! kenneth: "oo, oong oo ... kahit di tayo nagkita!" me: "pero how will it work? naisip mo ba?" kenneth: NO REPLY so yesterday, when he texted me ... uhmmm tungkol nga ba san ang pinagtetext anamen?! ahhh .. yung 9999999999 niya sa text ... when i askd him abt it, he said 99999 x niya daw ako kamahal! **sobrang kilig as in** and when i texted him luv u ken hehehehe he replied ... mahal na mahal kita ... LUV U too. sabi niya pala ... parang di daw siya prepared na makita ako kasi hindi naman daw siya gwapo saka mataba siya ... sabi ko anaman nacrush at first site nga ako sa kanya! shucks natakot tuloy ako kasi baka akala niya maganda ako dahil madilim nung nagkita kame ... oh GOd i think im already in lvoe with him. i am always thinkin of him... he's in my thoughts even when i sleep ... and i always go backt o those moments in guimaras with him. whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! in love na naman ako!! sobrang sarap ng feeling! this is just the first time a man ever tell me " MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA" even in text! even ARMAN who actually became my boyfriend did not say that ... even pa joke! oh gooood, nakakatakot baka m falling e naglalaro lang itong batang ito! wha's in his thoughts? what are his motives? is he playing around?! but i want to believe that he's for real and what he's texting are all coming from the hearts ... though when we talk he doesn't say it... ay naku di ko na alam iisipin! basta kinkilig ako at thinking of him is such a nice feeling! **now im inspired to be sexya be beutiful and be young** | 
